The first page of Denis Lebedev’s suicide note. Courtesy of Ivan N. Ivanov
Ivan N. Ivanov
26 April 2018
The suicide note of the boy who jumped from a window after the Russian Federal Security Service (FSB) intimidated him has been posted on the net.
Denis Lebedev was seventeen years old. He was a brilliant pupil and an Academic Olympics winner in chemistry. Chemistry was his passion in life. He did experiments in a small laboratory at home and dreamed of attending university.
Neighbors complained to the FSB about “explosions” in Lebedev’s flat, and one day the secret services forced their way in Believing Lebedev was either a terrorist or revolutionary, they turned the flat upside down, stole his telephone, computer, and lab equipments, scared him and his parents half to death, and made them sign a nondisclosure agreement.
On April 23, the day of his birthday, Denis was found dead on the ground outside his high-rise apartment building.
The second page of Denis Lebedev’s suicide note. Courtesy of Ivan N. Ivanov
This is addressed to the police, FSB, and other law enforcement agencies.
I’m just completely fucking exhausted. I don’t need anything fucking more from this life. No one induced me [to commit suicide], it was my personal decision.
The only thing I would like to say in the end is that I really fuck hate you motherfuckers.
You took from me the only passion that gave me joy and distracted me from my problems. I really fucking hate your entire government, whose only impulse is to ban the shit out of everything. Well, then you should fucking ban water, because you can use electrolysis to turn water in a canister into a bomb.
And fuck this system, in which my goddamn life depends on a single exam that has been compiled in such a way you cannot make fucking heads or tails of it. It is total shit, tailored to everyone identically.
You don’t need a people. You need a mob of fucking zombies who follow your orders. A separate portion of shit for Yarovaya.
Also, I apologize in advance to everyone to whom I meant something. That is it. I have nothing else to say. The people will say the rest.
To make it easier to identify the pancake on the cement: I am Denis Lebedev.
You can all go fuck yourselves!
Reports on Mr. Lebedev’s suicide in the Russian media:
- “Moscow Academic Olympics Winner in Chemistry Killed after FSB Inspection,” Moskovsky Komsomolets, 24 April 2016
- “Academic Olympics Winner in Chemistry Found Dead after FSB Inspection,” Lenta.ru, 24 April 2016
Thanks to Evgeny Shtorn for the heads-up. Translated by the Russian Reader
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